god fucking dammit am i sick of my braces. i go through enough wax to make like 10 candles a fucking day. christ. i'm actually i'm a really good mood, so i don't know why i began the entry on such an unhappy note. fuck it.

i went back to the 01886 area code yesterday/today and it was the best thing i could have done to get my shit together. i bought my mom tulips, had real homemade food, got to see my brother's band play for the first time (so good!) hung out with 3LN and erin, slept till 3, touched my dogs till they were sick of me, got some new duds courtsey of my mom which was a-mazing, and topped the visit off with a big fucking steak at the outback. hell yeah. i came back to the city in a better mood than i've been in in weeks.

saw Old School tonight, and even though a few parts were partially ruined by a certain rockstar who just had to tell me about them, i still laughed my ass off and actually felt like i got my ten bucks worth.

i'm in a good mood. breathing feels nice for once. god i didnt mean for that to sound suicidal or anything, i just don't feel all anxious like i normally do. now for some sleep before a sure to be fucking great day at the c store.

what i've been listening to

what's weird is that right before josh and i left to go see Old School, i was playing him the ryan adams CD "heartbreaker" but we only got through the first song before we had to go. turns out that "to be young (is to be sad is to be high)" the first song on the album, is the opening song of the goddamn movie. christ. i really thought it was weird but josh didn't seem too impressed by it. i really think it's a sign. i have no idea what of, but that really is a fucked up thing. it's not like it's a new song, or a popular song.

but goddamit if it isn't my second favorite song on the album.