so my jaw surgery came and went and now i'm home with a swollen face and a jaw held closely together using 4 stretegically placed elastics. i kind of want to die. all ive eaten since tuesday is yogurt, ice cream, and carnation instant breakfasts, which i did not and do not love in an instant, or otherwise. honestly, its getting better. matt came up today and took me out for ice cream, and i got through it, and even managed to talk for almost an hour without having to go to sleep. christ. dan souza, please call me, i need some support here and no one understands like you do. everyone else, please call me, im so goddamn bored. i really can't do much and i honestly don't think i'm ever going to be normal again. it sucks. so mail, air kisses, calls, e-mails, allvery appretiated. kill me.

i miss everyone from the city so much. its nice to be home, but not under these shitty circumstances. i just want to have a normal face and be happy. i swear i am going to love life so much once this is all over, seriously.